Holly Molly

So starting this blog, I figured I could either write you guys a reeeaaallly long blog or cut it short into sections of whats been going on in my life since my last post- I was thinking about doing a vlog.... but then again.. that would make me nervous and when I'm nervous I become reeallly awkward. No but for real. ANYWAYS.

Holy eff! I can't even believe how long it's been since my last post! I've literally been MIA from the blogging world since my laptop broke :( Sorry guys! I know you missed me! Lol. Mind you I'm in the library computer lab.. lol. Sooooo much has happened I don't even know where to begin! First off..

Elder Atiga

About 2 weeks ago (I think?), I went home for my brother-in-laws farewell(Muka). It was such a beautiful day and such an amazing talk that he gave in sacrament that I can't even explain it on here. Lol. The whole time he was talking though I think the only person I was thinking about was my husband, because he wasn't able to make it out for his brothers farewell :( Him and his brother are really close, and talking to my husband on the phone afterwards I could tell that he was really upset that he couldn't be there. I know he might've even cried a little, but just didn't tell me. Muka is going to be an amazing missionary! And I'm SO excited for him and his girlfriend Cassidi :)

Aside from that, spending time with my family and in-laws were nothing short of amazing. The days before coming home, I found myself angry all the time... I would even look for reasons to be mad even if it was something small. I don't know what was wrong with me so don't ask. Lol. I felt horrible cause I took it out on Rob. Not meaning to, I just was so mad at EVERYTHING! Lol. Looking back on it I really think that I was just in a bad mood because I hadn't seen my family and I didn't have friends yet, so i was literally by myself everyday. Lol. Crybaby status.. I know. Lol. But coming home was really all I needed to feel better :) The trip was short, but I loved it. Especially since I got to see my little nieces who will be moving to Australia in 2 months........ I think that might've been the last time I get to see them :(

Okay, I'm gonna stop now before I start crying in the computer lab. Lol.

Just know I loved my little trip back home :)

Babies?..

I'm still not pregnant guys... so quit asking. Lol. JK- but it's not like we haven't thought about it. Rob and I would absolutely LOOOOVE to have kids, but we just know that NOW wouldn't be the right time. Even though I love kids, I know that I myself isn't ready at all. I spoke to a friend of mine from church about it and she had told me that I'll know when i'm ready, I'll just feel it is what she had said. So, sorry guys.. who knows when i'll have that "ready feeling" haha. Maybe next year? Lol

Black Beauty

Our new car! Lol. We FINALLY gotta car... thanx to my in-laws :) and we love it. It's definitely taken a load off of our shoulders.. Rob and I decided to name it Black Beauty. Lol. But who knows, it could change tomorrow. Lol. We were so excited to have a car of our own that we went on an exploration.. lol. We wasted gas and drove around what seemed like all of Arkansas. I sent a picture of the truck to my dad with a text saying, "Our new truck! You like??"- and he texted back, "Holly Molly!"..... but I think he meant 'Holey Moley'. Lol.

Jobless..

Yep, still no job :( I was just telling my sister-in-law the other day that I've filled out what seems like 3541853873541 applications! Lol. No really though, I do. And I still haven't recieved a call back from anyone. It sucks not being able to help out. I know that Robs checks cover everything, but we always talk about how great it would be to have that extra money just in case. I just hate that feeling of not being productive, that "loser" feeling, ya know? Not that I blame Rob or anyone for making me come out here knowing that I'd have trouble finding a job but that's just how I've always been. Don't get me wrong though, I absolutely love it out here and I wouldn't change coming here for the world. Just wish I had a job. Lol. Speaking of, I just had an interview before coming here to the library.. and I'm feeling pretty good about it :) lol

Friends?

I've made some more! Lol. Aren't you guys proud of me?? Haha. That's all. Lol

Husband?

Well, I'm still madly in love with this guy. Lol. He's doing good! I'm so proud of him.. and I swear he's getting bigger by the day! Not over-exaggerating I promise. Lol. I'm so excited to see how these next few years are going to turn out between us. We've only been married for a little over 2 months and I'm not tired the married life yet. Lol. Everytime we're together it's literally like two little kids. Lol. He really does bring out the little girl in me and I LOVE IT! :) And no matter how evil I am to him, cuz I can be the biggest witch you've ever known (just ask him!), he STILL is the sweetest guy to me.

This is random, but just the other night we literally stayed up till 3 in the morning laughing- I don't even know what we were laughing about............... or do I? Lol. We have so many inside-jokes that I could write a full on novel full of 'em, with small print and like 2 million chapters! (Ok i'm exaggerating but you get the picture). I literally haven't seen Rob laugh that hard in my entire life! Now for me, I laugh at almost everything. Sometimes I'll even find myself laughing out of no where over something that happend like... 2 months ago?! Lol. But Rob, he laughs, maybe even giggles a little. But that night he was literally laughing so hard his eyes got watery and he had to hold his stomach because it was hurting so bad. Lol. I just thought that was the cutest thing ever.. ;) Lol. *sigh* I just felt like if you can be with someone for almost 6 years and STILL be able to have that kinda fun with them... what else is there to look forward to? :)

Wellp, my time is running out (No really, they have a time limit on these computers.. lol)- but I just wanted to leave a small update :) Hopefully i'll be able to keep up more now that I have a library card. Lol. Just so I won't have to try and cram all of it together in one post :/

Till next time.

XOXO

-nik

one month down.

Its been a CRAZY month.

Since then we've had some downs, but our prayers and the church have been helping us get through this small struggle.

One month down, forever to go.. and I'm forever grateful. Things are slowly changing....... For the better <3

"It takes three to have a successful marriage: You, Your husband, and the Lord"

<3 nik

.xoxo.

wednesday night.

Tonight I'm helping Robb with his homework by listening to him read his book from his Criminal Justice (his major) class...

He's so cute when he reads :)

can't sleep....

Hi.
I can't sleep :(
So that's why I'm on my phone...... blogging away.

For some odd reason I've been having bad dreams at night that really just keep me up. I told Robby about my dreams and we both agree that something is wrong with me. Lol. Not to mention he said to  me, "You're like the most strangest person I've ever met with the weirdest dreams.."

...I don't know? Am I? Lol. 
Robby is sleeping. Well........ he's always sleeping. Since school for him started he's been getting to come home earlier! [insert smiley face]..... I think I was more excited than he was cuz I made him pick out an outfit and fix his hair... Haha... But then he knocks out around 9ish [insert sad face]. He'll literally come home, flop himself on the bed and say, "So how was your day?"- then while I'm chattin' away excited to tell him how my day was, I'll look over and there he is.... dead asleep. Lol.But that's okay :)

Its been almost a month now since we've been married. Wow, I can't even tell ya how fast it feels that time just flew by... and not a day passes that I don't find myself loving him even more than I did before.
Even when he tells me I have a serious problem with spending money on my 'wants', yet he tells me we need a 42'' flat screen and a bob marley poster in our living room.. 
...or when I asked him to get us hand soap for the bathroom and he comes home with DISH soap... for dishes we DON'T have.
...or how his snoring almost sounds like a dying bear being chocked to death yet he swears up and down that I'm lying and he doesn't snore.
[Until I recorded him and played it for him when he came home that next day :p]
Haha okaaayyyy, I'm done now. Lol. But even with allll that, I still love him regardless. Flaws & ALL ;)
I absolutely love that every night before we go to bed we kneel down & pray together.... something I never usually did on my own before we got married. It gives me comfort. Especially in a time like this where we're still working on settling-in in a new town with new people. Im still working on making some  friends.... Lol.
 
I'm also still in the process of finding a job which hasn't exactly been easy. Robs advisors have also been helping me as well which has definitely helped me a lot.

[P.S- I hate that I'm so bad at interviews. I can never say the right things!]

Anyways, till then I've just been applying at wherever. Hoping something, ANYTHING, will come through.

Today my sister Pumpkin texted me and said they're having a bbq for my niece who's turning 2.... and I cried. The only thing that can ever weaken me to the bone is missing my family. I feel so lucky to have Rob here with me to keep me from breaking down like I did almost ALLLLL the time in Missouri. Rob knows, and I do admit that I am a big cry baby at times. I miss my family. Especially my parents and little bro's.

Just some things that were on my mind.... :)

.xOxO.

*little update

Ugh, I hate that our apartment doesn't have wifi AND my laptop is broken :(
the only internet we have are the ones on our phones. Lol. Because of which I'm not able to update my blog as much as I want to. (SUCKY!)
Which is why I'm at the business center on their computers. Lol.

Anyways.................

our [little but perfect] humble abode :)

the married life. Ohhhhhh how I absolutely LOVE being married :) Maybe it's just a newlywed thing, but I love the thought of having Rob to myself after all is said & done during the day. He makes me happy :) lol. We just moved into our apartment last week and so far its been great! Our apartment is tiny... but it's perfect just for the two of us. Things have been quite hectic though seeing as how Rob has already started training so he's gone from 5:30am to 10pm.... Literally. I've had to come up with ways to keep myself busy while he's away. I'm pretty sure I've done laundry just a LITTLE too much since we've been here.... Lol. And just the other day I found out that there's a bus stop right outside that could take us almost anywhere around Fayetteville. So I decided to hop right on that puppy and see where it took me. Lol.

I think this whole bus ride situation was meant to be because the bus took me straight to the MALL. Hahaha. So I explored a little bit, bought some and ate some new foods :) The mall... is my sanctuary. Lol. Rob knows how much I love to shop, so he was a bit worried that I was over there all by myself (usually he's there to talk me out of buying things that I WANT instead of NEED..) but I thought I did pretty good all by myself. Lol. Still wish he was there though....

It's a little hard not having him around as much as I want when we JUST got married. But I knew exactly what I was getting myself into.

Before we got here I didn't even realize how big of fans these people were for the UofA football team. They're literally DIE-HARD. And the team??.... Can you say SPOILED ROTTEN!? Sheeze, they're treated like KINGS over here.

..isn't that a nice stadium? Sometimes I take a morning jog and go watch his practices in the stadium... well, the ones that are open to the public at least. Lol. Even in their practices there are a good amount of people that just come to watch.... it's a freaking PRACTICE for crying out loud! haha. I guess that's how they roll over here though. I tried to take a couple pictures of him during his practice and a guy came up to me and told me I need to put my camera away... Lol.


Aside from his busy schedule, when he IS home or when he gets time.... that's when we try to make the best out of his free time by taking walks. Even if it's just to the mailbox. Lol. Oh, and cause we don't have a car... Lol- but I think that taking walks together and such gives us time to just talk and catch up :) It amazes me how he makes me laugh so hard my stomach hurts.... STILL. And gives me butterflies.... STILL. And is just so flippin' HOT.......... STILL! Lol. Okay, I think I'm milking it now.

Bottom line, I just love my husband. Hopefully next time I'll have a better blog. I just have to make this one short since I'm on the apartment computers and other people need them..... Lol. Plus this girl has been waiting for almost an hour for a free computer and I feel bad. Lol.

Till next time,
<3nik

.xOxO.

my past, present and future.

It's Sunday. The beginning of THEE week, not A week.. THEE week. In less than 5 days, I will no longer be 'Nichole Lolohea'... it's so weird to think everything that's going on is actually happening and it's not just my imagination. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that this week I'll be married and next week my husband and I will be starting our new lives in Arkansas.

In my last post (more than 3 but less than 5)... I sort've rushed into telling everyone about Rob and I getting married without thoroughly explaining myself. I apologize. I guess I was just so into saying it that I didn't really think about actually sitting down and make the blog worth reading. Lol. But maybe this will give everyone a better idea as to why/how I made my decision..

I met my mister when I was 14. But we never really actually started dating until I was 16 of course, but for the 2 years up until then it was more of a hardcore crush between us.... so we still count it. Lol. I remember everything that happened the day he asked me to be his "girlfriend" (lol). I remember the song that was playing in the background (How Deep is Your Love by the BeeGees), I remember exactly what he was wearing (faded blue shorts, a plain black tee and a white hat) and most importantly I remember how we were so shy we couldn't even look at each other and our "talking" sounded more like mumbling.. Lol. But we were kids... and I know we still are.. but I feel as though Rob and I have come a very long way since then. Trust, it wasn't easy not having him around for the 8 months I was in Missouri. But I couldn't be grateful enough for it happening, because it made us understand each other on a whole different level. It made me see something in him that I knew for a fact I couldn't let go of. Lots of people think that my reason for leaving school was to be with Rob. But I left because I wasn't happy there. Then realizing that the times when I WAS most happiest.... was with my family.. and Rob. I know everyone says this, but our relationship really is like a rollercoaster. With it's little ups, little downs, big ups and big downs.......... the kind of rollercoaster that never stops........... and right when you feel like its about to come to an end, it all of a sudden (unexpectedly) keeps going.... and instead of going around in the same boring circle.... it keeps moving forward.... with its little ups, little downs, big ups and big downs :) and even though you never know what will happen next or where it'll go, you'll know that whatever this mystery rollercoaster may bring, your one true love will be right next to you through it all.

5 years (and counting..)

and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

You know it's love when you understand each others past,

accept each others present,

and believe in one anothers future.

..and Rob does just that for me and vice versa.

He truly is.................. my past, present, and future :]

.xOxO.

made by me, sorta.

Ok, so yesterday afternoon I had gone to the mall with Rob and absolutely fell in love with this Roxy ditsy floral fedora hat [picture below] at Lids. I wanted it sooooo bad but of course it was way too expensive..... for just a hat. I was so bummed I didn't get it :(

When I got home I had remembered that I had an old floral tie headband that I had stopped wearing. I was so close to throwing it away when I was cleaning out my room but apart of me had me thinking I could maybe use it for something else.... so I kept it hanging in my room. I had also bought a plain summer hat at forever 21 a couple of weeks ago that had nothing on it, it was just plain, but on sale! Lol- So I thought this would be a PERFECT opportunity to use my floral headband and sew it onto the hat that, by the way, was only 11 bucks. Lol. SO MUCH cheaper than the Roxy hat [see picture below].

p.s- I'm sorry I don't have before and after pics. I didn't realize this would be something to blog about until after I was finished. Lol.

After I was done, I double knotted the back and cut both ends. Then shredded the sides to make the cut look less sloppy..

[see bottom picture]

So it doesn't look exactly like the Roxy hat I wanted.... and I know it's not as a great a creation as others... but I'm still pretty proud of myself that I thought of the idea and did it on my own. Lol. Plus it was ALOT cheaper! :)

I don't know about you guys, but I love my new hat :) Lol

So what do you guys think!? :)

.xOxO.