Hey bloggers! I've honestly sat down at least three or four times since my last post and started to blog but never ever got around to finishing them. I know, just shoot myself in the face right?
I feel like not too much has really happened since my last post.... But then again I feel like a crap load of things has happened too. Rob and I have been doing extremely well since we lost our Little Al..... After everything happened I took a little break from work and friends to just find time to myself for a couple of days. Even though I had a clear understanding that everything was gonna be okay and I knew that with time I would heal from it..... I felt like I just needed to mourn. It just hurt. And I didn't want to act like things were okay when they weren't. It was then that I needed to remember that it's okay, to not be okay.....
No matter what the statistics are with miscarriages, I can honestly say and I'm sure that I can speak for all mothers who have been through it, that it never gets any easier. And yes, its something that can be dealt with but definitely not something that you can really get over.. Like ever.
Its hard.
Whether you're 4 weeks along....
6 weeks along...
30 weeks along...
ITS HARD.
I'm proud of myself at how much I've grown from it and how much Rob and I have grown as a couple. Both of our families have also been a huge help by showing amazing support... I am so grateful for each and every one of them. Rob and I have for sure thought about trying again but for now, we're just gonna wait a little bit.. Hopefully a lot sooner than later....... You'll just have to wait and see...... Lol.
I can't believe that my Robert Aona has only one more year of college left here in Arkansas.... And its crazy to think that this upcoming August we would have lived here for 2 years already..... And in July we'll be celebrating our 2 year anniversary! Time has definitely flown by. Not to mention in October Robs brother Muka will be coming home from his mission! .....2013 is in for some ultimate craziness. But the good craziness. Lol.
Its bittersweet to think about moving back to Utah once Rob graduates in December because Fayetteville (the town we live in) has definitely been our "home away from home"... But i'll save all that for another post. Lol.
Until then, I hope everyone has a safe weekend!
With love,
The Atigas
