..Just Because/Senior Year

So i noticed that blogging has become the "new thing" nowadays and after reading blogs from other people it had interested me enough to try it out and make one for myself! :) So here I am...

So I woke up this morning thinking about how much I hate school and how I can't wait to be done with it, and then it dawned on me and I realized that I only have 2 more months left until I graduate from highschool.
--2 more months and I'm done.... completely. No more seeing favorite teachers. No more reuniting with class friends. No more spirit week. No more dances. No more classes to ditch. LOL. Jk. I know it may not seem like such a big deal, but just the thought of me being done with highschool scares the sh** outta me. Lol- I mean, leaving highschool and friends are hard of course but growing up is even harder. My sister had told me that after you graduate, your entire life changes and you learn to become an adult. Now for me, that could go both ways in being a good thing or a bad thing. Sometimes I even ask myself if I'm ready to enter into the reality world and leave home where I can learn to be more independent and live on my own. I mean I still feel like a kid inside! Lol. But I know I need to realize that I can't expect to be sheltered by parents my whole life. After all, one of these days I'm gonna be living on my own and possibly married with kids. I can't be some sore loser on the side. Lol.

I've been dreading the day that I graduate since my senior year had began last august, thinking to myself: Who's going to be there? Who am I gonna sit by? What am I gonna wear?...... Am I gonna look fat in my gown? LOL- I mean cmon now, its my highschool graduation.. I wanna look smokin! Oh I mean, sophisticated and adult like. Lol. But seriously though, thats the biggest upcoming event for me and just thinking about gives me butterflies in my stomach. My boyfriend had told me that graduating is "the greatest feeling in the whole world"..... so I thought to myself, " Mmmm no honey, LOSING WEIGHT is the greatest feeling in the whole world" Lol. Just kidding, thats besides the point. But what he said really did hit me hard. There are a lot of things great feelings can come from but are only in comparison to baby steps. For me, graduating is another big step higher into accomplishing my life long goals. So until that day, I'm just another teenage girl learning to grow up and preparing to take that step.