Boredom

*sigh*

Times like this is when I wish I had some red shoes that I could just click together and say "There's no place like home" over and over again until I actually end up at home. It wouldn't hurt to be in my own room again.. it's not that I hate having a roommate, but I loooooved having a room to myself cause I was able to just do my own thing. I could play my music as loud as I want without worrying about it disturbing anyone, I could get dressed without going in the bathroom or in my closet (lol.. is that weird that I'm body shy to get dressed around other girls? I can't even dress in front of my sisters let alone in front of strangers. Lol), I wouldn't have to share one bathroom between three other girls, I wouldn't have to go outside to talk on the phone, and well, no offense to my roommate, but I always feel like I have to start up a conversation with her during awkward silence. Even when I don't really want to. Lol. Sometimes I just feel like I'm forcing myself to be comfortable in my own dorm.. get it?

But at home.... I could do ALL those things. I could've even LIVED in my room if I wanted to. Lol. Really though, since my room was right next to the bathroom and kitchen, I was pretty much set. I think the entire winter break I was hooked on my tv cuz over here we don't have a tv in our room. I could tell you right now, without a tv in your dorm its soooooooooo BORING!- why do you think i've actually accomplished posting two blogs these passed two weeks? Or why I'm on facebook 25/8? (Does that make me facebook loser? Lol)

There is a TV in this dorm hall but you would have to go down to the lounge to watch it and its almost always occupied by other people... so annoying. I HATE missing out on tv shows :/ Sometimes.............. I don't even know what to do with myself? I had a box of wheat thins I just bought from walmart like yesterday and today? Woke up. Ate the entire box. Lol. Only cause I had nothing to do!! *sigh* I need to find a new thing to do. You think?

I admit, I'm guilty....

...guilty of being a sucker for love.. :'(

It's 1:19am, and what am I doing? Obviously not sleeping.. and WHY am I not sleeping? *sigh* because I rrreeeeaaallllyy, really, really, like REALLY, miss my Robert-Aona :( Now, I don't know what's gotten into me lately, but for some reason there's just something about tonight that made me miss Robb even more then I usually do. Maybe it's because ever since school started for the both of us, we haven't really been talking as much as we used to due to our crazy schedules... and the one hour time difference doesn't help all that much either.. OR.. it could be the fact that I feel like I didn't even get to spend that much time with him over winter break. Even though we were pretty much together EVERY second of EVERY day.. and now that I'm back in Missouri I feel like it all just came & gone by way too fast. But then again, there's also the fact that this "long distance" relationship thing has been one tough journey for the both us and after a loooongg 5 months, I feel like we're finally where we need to be at :) <---- which is HAPPY :) Not that we weren't happy before.... but in the beginning of my fall semester here, Robb and I were definitely going through problems. Now I'm not gonna go into details, but let's just say that I honestly thought me and him were done for good. Literally.

DONE.

I felt like things were just going downhill with our relationship and I didn't know how to deal with it seeing as how we were thousands of miles away from each other....

***Ok, I'm gonna stop myself before I start getting into the whole story. Lol***

But anyways, after my visit back home for the holidays, we definitely had some serious talks. After that, things just started falling in it's place with us. Kinda like I was falling in love all over again :) He has definitely made me a better person.... or maybe its the other way around? Lol. Kidding. But, really though, he has :) This long distance relationship of ours is, I admit, a little bit stressful at times but I don't even think of it as being "long distance" really. We try and make an effort to give each other a "goodnight & i love you" phone call every night with most nights being successful :) and that just makes it so much easier for me to get through the next day... or when he sends me random "I love you" text messages throughout the day :) Those are my fave..

***Seriously, I need to stop. Lol***

..Sooooo anyways, I'm kind've upset that he's not awake right now so we can talk. Lol- but oh well, I'll get over it. I'll just call him when I wake up for my 6:30am conditioning tomorrow morning (mind you, that's 5:30am Utah time. Lol) I knowwww, I'm a horrible person huh??

- Well, I guess I should go to bed now. Just thought I'd post some of my 'late night thoughts' :)

Night ya'll! ;)