...guilty of being a sucker for love.. :'(
It's 1:19am, and what am I doing? Obviously not sleeping.. and WHY am I not sleeping? *sigh* because I rrreeeeaaallllyy, really, really, like REALLY, miss my Robert-Aona :( Now, I don't know what's gotten into me lately, but for some reason there's just something about tonight that made me miss Robb even more then I usually do. Maybe it's because ever since school started for the both of us, we haven't really been talking as much as we used to due to our crazy schedules... and the one hour time difference doesn't help all that much either.. OR.. it could be the fact that I feel like I didn't even get to spend that much time with him over winter break. Even though we were pretty much together EVERY second of EVERY day.. and now that I'm back in Missouri I feel like it all just came & gone by way too fast. But then again, there's also the fact that this "long distance" relationship thing has been one tough journey for the both us and after a loooongg 5 months, I feel like we're finally where we need to be at :) <---- which is HAPPY :) Not that we weren't happy before.... but in the beginning of my fall semester here, Robb and I were definitely going through problems. Now I'm not gonna go into details, but let's just say that I honestly thought me and him were done for good. Literally.
DONE.
I felt like things were just going downhill with our relationship and I didn't know how to deal with it seeing as how we were thousands of miles away from each other....
***Ok, I'm gonna stop myself before I start getting into the whole story. Lol***
But anyways, after my visit back home for the holidays, we definitely had some serious talks. After that, things just started falling in it's place with us. Kinda like I was falling in love all over again :) He has definitely made me a better person.... or maybe its the other way around? Lol. Kidding. But, really though, he has :) This long distance relationship of ours is, I admit, a little bit stressful at times but I don't even think of it as being "long distance" really. We try and make an effort to give each other a "goodnight & i love you" phone call every night with most nights being successful :) and that just makes it so much easier for me to get through the next day... or when he sends me random "I love you" text messages throughout the day :) Those are my fave..
***Seriously, I need to stop. Lol***
..Sooooo anyways, I'm kind've upset that he's not awake right now so we can talk. Lol- but oh well, I'll get over it. I'll just call him when I wake up for my 6:30am conditioning tomorrow morning (mind you, that's 5:30am Utah time. Lol) I knowwww, I'm a horrible person huh??
- Well, I guess I should go to bed now. Just thought I'd post some of my 'late night thoughts' :)
Night ya'll! ;)
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