my past, present and future.

It's Sunday. The beginning of THEE week, not A week.. THEE week. In less than 5 days, I will no longer be 'Nichole Lolohea'... it's so weird to think everything that's going on is actually happening and it's not just my imagination. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that this week I'll be married and next week my husband and I will be starting our new lives in Arkansas.

In my last post (more than 3 but less than 5)... I sort've rushed into telling everyone about Rob and I getting married without thoroughly explaining myself. I apologize. I guess I was just so into saying it that I didn't really think about actually sitting down and make the blog worth reading. Lol. But maybe this will give everyone a better idea as to why/how I made my decision..

I met my mister when I was 14. But we never really actually started dating until I was 16 of course, but for the 2 years up until then it was more of a hardcore crush between us.... so we still count it. Lol. I remember everything that happened the day he asked me to be his "girlfriend" (lol). I remember the song that was playing in the background (How Deep is Your Love by the BeeGees), I remember exactly what he was wearing (faded blue shorts, a plain black tee and a white hat) and most importantly I remember how we were so shy we couldn't even look at each other and our "talking" sounded more like mumbling.. Lol. But we were kids... and I know we still are.. but I feel as though Rob and I have come a very long way since then. Trust, it wasn't easy not having him around for the 8 months I was in Missouri. But I couldn't be grateful enough for it happening, because it made us understand each other on a whole different level. It made me see something in him that I knew for a fact I couldn't let go of. Lots of people think that my reason for leaving school was to be with Rob. But I left because I wasn't happy there. Then realizing that the times when I WAS most happiest.... was with my family.. and Rob. I know everyone says this, but our relationship really is like a rollercoaster. With it's little ups, little downs, big ups and big downs.......... the kind of rollercoaster that never stops........... and right when you feel like its about to come to an end, it all of a sudden (unexpectedly) keeps going.... and instead of going around in the same boring circle.... it keeps moving forward.... with its little ups, little downs, big ups and big downs :) and even though you never know what will happen next or where it'll go, you'll know that whatever this mystery rollercoaster may bring, your one true love will be right next to you through it all.

5 years (and counting..)

and I wouldn't have had it any other way.

You know it's love when you understand each others past,

accept each others present,

and believe in one anothers future.

..and Rob does just that for me and vice versa.

He truly is.................. my past, present, and future :]

.xOxO.

made by me, sorta.

Ok, so yesterday afternoon I had gone to the mall with Rob and absolutely fell in love with this Roxy ditsy floral fedora hat [picture below] at Lids. I wanted it sooooo bad but of course it was way too expensive..... for just a hat. I was so bummed I didn't get it :(

When I got home I had remembered that I had an old floral tie headband that I had stopped wearing. I was so close to throwing it away when I was cleaning out my room but apart of me had me thinking I could maybe use it for something else.... so I kept it hanging in my room. I had also bought a plain summer hat at forever 21 a couple of weeks ago that had nothing on it, it was just plain, but on sale! Lol- So I thought this would be a PERFECT opportunity to use my floral headband and sew it onto the hat that, by the way, was only 11 bucks. Lol. SO MUCH cheaper than the Roxy hat [see picture below].

p.s- I'm sorry I don't have before and after pics. I didn't realize this would be something to blog about until after I was finished. Lol.

After I was done, I double knotted the back and cut both ends. Then shredded the sides to make the cut look less sloppy..

[see bottom picture]

So it doesn't look exactly like the Roxy hat I wanted.... and I know it's not as a great a creation as others... but I'm still pretty proud of myself that I thought of the idea and did it on my own. Lol. Plus it was ALOT cheaper! :)

I don't know about you guys, but I love my new hat :) Lol

So what do you guys think!? :)

.xOxO.

dress me don't stress me.

Yesterday, I went with my mom and sister to find a dress. I swear the lady helping me find a dress was getting super irritated with my mom... but she wasn't the only one. Almost every single dress I tried on my mother had to say something negative.

"Nikki, you look like a balloon. Take it off!"

"I don't like that one!"
"That's hideous.."

"You really need something to cover up those stretch marks.."

....but trust me, there's more! But I think it's best not to put them out there. Lol. She was driving me nuts! But then again, what mother doesn't? right?

Anyways, after trying on I think almost 20 dresses with only 2 favorites.. my mom said, "Why don't you just try on one more??" and being the brat that I am I said, "Mom I'm tired of trying on dresses.." Lol. (I know, I'm annoying) but I did it anyways..... and to my surprise, the very last dress was the BEST! :) I loved it and it fit perfectly.

Guess mother does know best.

four days

So as most of you already know, let me fill those who don't on whats been going on (behind the scenes) these past few weeks..

I no longer have a boyfriend..... because he is now my fiance :) Robert and I decided that we definitely do not want to have to go through another dilemma like we did when I left to Missouri and he stayed here in Utah. Call us crazy, but if staying with him means getting married and going with him to Arkansas... then I guess we're crazy. But I don't want anyone thinking that that's the ONLY reason why I'm marrying him. I could list a million and one things of WHY I wanna marry him. Everyone has their opinions though, but needless to say..... nobodys perfect. Since day 1, we've always known that we wanted to marry each other. It was just a matter of 'WHEN?'.

After having long talks with our siblings, we gathered up enough courage to tell our parents. Surprisingly, our parents were happy for us (: It was sucha relief to know they were gonna support us 110%. So lately we've just been doing some last minute planning, nothing big.. but special enough for me and Rob.

Currently still planning, Rob and I will be getting married in FOUR days. Yea thats right.. FOUR.

F-O-U-R

Lol. We really are a buncha crazy lovebirds uh??

.xOxO.

got beauty?

Went shoppin' with the bff today, and she bought this long strap across the shoulder purse. I love it :)

I'm obsessed.

Do you "got beauty"?

If you don't, I suggest you go.. right now! :)

.xOxO.

fired.

Yes, I am talking about myself. I think if blogging were a job I'd be FIRED, because I've just come to realize that I effing suck at blogging :( LOL- it's kind've depressing when everyone else on my blog list has updates weekly and here I am, with almost a month without updating. Uggggghhhh, I oughtta shoot myself between the eyes for that one. I could say I've been busy? But then again, if coming home from work (Oh yea! Did you guys know I work now? Prob not cause I haven't blogged about it..*refer to title*) & sleeping till the sun rises the next mornin' counts as busy................ then I guess I really was busy! Lol. Eh.. no not really.

Anyways, let's update shall we?

Sooo...

my first job.

Did I mention it was my FIRST? As in, I've never worked before in my life. Lol- it sounds sooooo bad when I say it like that, but I never worked cause well... volleyball had consumed eeeeeverything. I know I shouldn't use that as an excuse since there are plenty of volleyball players out there who are doing school, volleyball AND work. But my dad just wanted us to focus on volleyball. So for my very first job (lol), I work as a group leader for a summer school program at an elementary...... yes, it's not that serious guys. But hey, it's a START! :) lol. So pretty much I take care of kids (3rd and 4th graders to be exact). It gets irritating at times but I learn something new everyday I'm with those kids, whether it be good or bad. Lol. Since it's only a summer thing, our program ends tomorrow.... so why dontcha take a wild guess on what I'm gonna do since I won't be working anymore!?

*please, keep your negative comments to yourself :)

Sister's wedding.

My older sister Maile (also known as "Brit") had gotten married last month. Which I should've blogged about because it turned out amazing, but didn't. Hence the title of my post :/ My sister looked beautiful on her wedding day and I'm extremely happy for her. I haven't seen her in four days and it's been GRRRREAT! Lol. Ok that was rude- no but really. It's a little weird that I'm the only girl in the house now and that I don't see her often or as much as I used to since her and her husband live in Ogden. Since both my sisters have moved out I feel like I'm a complete loser. Lol. With just me and my brothers home, I find myself going downstairs in my brothers room and just sitting there watching him play his game.... he always gives me that look like, "Uh, can I help you?!" Lol. But I just go down there for company :) ....he knows he loves having me around :)

Boyfriend.

Me and boyfriend are doing aaaaaaaamazing :) He still loves me, but what's new? Lol. Kidding- A couple of weeks ago we decided to have a "treat ourselves" weekend. We planned to go hiking, then breakfast at HIS fave pancake place. Then shopping and dinner at our fave restaraunt. But the whole "treat ourselves" weekend turned into a "treat just Nikki" weekend. Lol- which I had absolutely NOTHING to do with, he did it ALL :) On top of shopping and such, he surprised me with a 90 minute massage appointment at this aaaaamazing spa (Am I saying 'amazing' too much? Hmm, if I am then it's cause everything really was 'amazing'.. so deal with it. lol). Isn't he just thee greatest though? I sure think so :) I mean, sometimes I think to myself, "Where on earth do you find a guy like this?!"-- oh that's right, no where because he is ONE-OF-A-KIND ;) lol. Ok I should stop now...... but on a good note, it really was an amazing weekend. Not to mention that he said to me, "You should blog about this.." Lol. This guy, right!?

Gotta love em'

.xOxO.