Thank goodness for Oovoo!

...I loooove his smile :)

..his kisses are STILL the best :)

..and I love him :)

distance definitely can't compete with love :)

Boredom

*sigh*

Times like this is when I wish I had some red shoes that I could just click together and say "There's no place like home" over and over again until I actually end up at home. It wouldn't hurt to be in my own room again.. it's not that I hate having a roommate, but I loooooved having a room to myself cause I was able to just do my own thing. I could play my music as loud as I want without worrying about it disturbing anyone, I could get dressed without going in the bathroom or in my closet (lol.. is that weird that I'm body shy to get dressed around other girls? I can't even dress in front of my sisters let alone in front of strangers. Lol), I wouldn't have to share one bathroom between three other girls, I wouldn't have to go outside to talk on the phone, and well, no offense to my roommate, but I always feel like I have to start up a conversation with her during awkward silence. Even when I don't really want to. Lol. Sometimes I just feel like I'm forcing myself to be comfortable in my own dorm.. get it?

But at home.... I could do ALL those things. I could've even LIVED in my room if I wanted to. Lol. Really though, since my room was right next to the bathroom and kitchen, I was pretty much set. I think the entire winter break I was hooked on my tv cuz over here we don't have a tv in our room. I could tell you right now, without a tv in your dorm its soooooooooo BORING!- why do you think i've actually accomplished posting two blogs these passed two weeks? Or why I'm on facebook 25/8? (Does that make me facebook loser? Lol)

There is a TV in this dorm hall but you would have to go down to the lounge to watch it and its almost always occupied by other people... so annoying. I HATE missing out on tv shows :/ Sometimes.............. I don't even know what to do with myself? I had a box of wheat thins I just bought from walmart like yesterday and today? Woke up. Ate the entire box. Lol. Only cause I had nothing to do!! *sigh* I need to find a new thing to do. You think?

I admit, I'm guilty....

...guilty of being a sucker for love.. :'(

It's 1:19am, and what am I doing? Obviously not sleeping.. and WHY am I not sleeping? *sigh* because I rrreeeeaaallllyy, really, really, like REALLY, miss my Robert-Aona :( Now, I don't know what's gotten into me lately, but for some reason there's just something about tonight that made me miss Robb even more then I usually do. Maybe it's because ever since school started for the both of us, we haven't really been talking as much as we used to due to our crazy schedules... and the one hour time difference doesn't help all that much either.. OR.. it could be the fact that I feel like I didn't even get to spend that much time with him over winter break. Even though we were pretty much together EVERY second of EVERY day.. and now that I'm back in Missouri I feel like it all just came & gone by way too fast. But then again, there's also the fact that this "long distance" relationship thing has been one tough journey for the both us and after a loooongg 5 months, I feel like we're finally where we need to be at :) <---- which is HAPPY :) Not that we weren't happy before.... but in the beginning of my fall semester here, Robb and I were definitely going through problems. Now I'm not gonna go into details, but let's just say that I honestly thought me and him were done for good. Literally.

DONE.

I felt like things were just going downhill with our relationship and I didn't know how to deal with it seeing as how we were thousands of miles away from each other....

***Ok, I'm gonna stop myself before I start getting into the whole story. Lol***

But anyways, after my visit back home for the holidays, we definitely had some serious talks. After that, things just started falling in it's place with us. Kinda like I was falling in love all over again :) He has definitely made me a better person.... or maybe its the other way around? Lol. Kidding. But, really though, he has :) This long distance relationship of ours is, I admit, a little bit stressful at times but I don't even think of it as being "long distance" really. We try and make an effort to give each other a "goodnight & i love you" phone call every night with most nights being successful :) and that just makes it so much easier for me to get through the next day... or when he sends me random "I love you" text messages throughout the day :) Those are my fave..

***Seriously, I need to stop. Lol***

..Sooooo anyways, I'm kind've upset that he's not awake right now so we can talk. Lol- but oh well, I'll get over it. I'll just call him when I wake up for my 6:30am conditioning tomorrow morning (mind you, that's 5:30am Utah time. Lol) I knowwww, I'm a horrible person huh??

- Well, I guess I should go to bed now. Just thought I'd post some of my 'late night thoughts' :)

Night ya'll! ;)

- sisters -

"A loyal sister is worth a thousand friends" -Marian Eigerman

Luckily for me, I grew up with TWO loyal sisters... jeeze, that's alotta friends! LOL. Anyways, I come from a family with 5 kids... Me being the middle child with two older sisters and two younger brothers. So with two older sisters, I've pretty much been stuck with being the "baby sister" my whole life.

First off, there's my half sister Leilani Lynn, who is half tongan and half white. When I was 8 (I think?) I remember my dad calling a family meeting for just me and my sisters, probably because my little brothers were to young to understand what was going on. But thats when he told us that he had another daughter. At first I was completely lost.... ANOTHER daughter!?! I wasn't sure which I should accept first, the fact that I have another sister? or the fact that my dad had a kid to another woman before he met my mom?- but I mean I was young, and it wasn't that big of a deal. It made me happy to know that I had another big sister. So after the "big secret", you could only imagine all the questions we were asking my dad about her- What's her name? How old is she? Where does she live? What does she look like?... and well...... after my dad had said that out of all of us she looked like me the most, I knew right then and there that she was an extremely beautiful girl. LOL :) hahahaha just kidding- you would think it too!

Unfortunately I didn't necessarily get the chance to "grow up" with her.. I guess you could put it that way. But a sister is a sister no matter what and I'm grateful :) She is now married with two beautiful daughters and is living in Arizona.

Then there's the eldest in the family... Precellia Nanuma, but we just call her Pumpkin. I don't know exactly how she got that name really, my mom said that its because when she first held her as a baby in the hospital, she had a big orange head.... like a pumpkin. Lol- What a sad way to earn a nickname right?! hah.

Even though she's technically my big sister, I'd swear she was more of a big brother than a sister. I would say she was like a second mom to me, but then I'd be lying. She was more like a second dad. I mean....... she walks like a dude, talks like a dude, eats like a dude, smells like a dude and even punches like a dude! Lol. Jk- but I wasn't kidding about the punching part. Lol. But out of all three of us, she was the tough cookie. She never seemed to show weakness in anything! Whether it was family problems or sports, she was always the strongest link among the 5 of us. Even though she's married with her own family now, she STILL holds both families together with how much strength she has. She was also the 'over-protective' one, every family has one.. right? I remember when I first started dating Robb, Pumpkin didn't like him at all. Not because she knew him (cause she didn't at the time. Lol), but just cause he was "dating her baby sister" and at that age I was too young to have a boyfriend. Which is understandable, but mind you this was when Pumpkin was still a junior in highschool and she didn't have a boyfriend till her senior year. Lol. So obviously she had something against all guys in general........... at that time. Lol. But anyways, I always felt sorry for Robb cause she was so rude to him! Lol- but like a good guy, Robb never stood up for himself. He just sat there and took it. Only because he had more respect for me and my family to not try and mess things up. I mean I would do the same also of course. But through time, Pumpkin grew to love Robert because of all the sweet things he has done for me and for our family up until now. So because I loved him, she loved him also. Now, I'm pretty sure she loves him more than she loves me! Lol.

Pumpkin has always been the backbone to our family and has always made sure that all her younger siblings were taken care of no matter what the issue be. She always keeps me laughing with her annoying text messages and her sarcastic remarks, I swear Pumpkin just has something to say about everything! Lol. Yep, thats my big sister ;)

Last but not least is my other big sis Brittny Maile, some people call her Britt but we just call her Maile. Lots of people always ask why we call her Maile and well........ to make this short and simple, her middle name, "Maile", came from my dads younger sister who had down syndrome, my aunty Maile. After my aunt died in '02, my dad made all of us kids call her Maile from here on out. He specifically said, and I quote, "If I hear you guys call her Brittny one more time I'm gonna whip you with the belt"- lol. Psycho right!? Nahh.. Lol- he just wanted us to use that name as a way of remembering my aunt :) So since then I guess, it pretty much replaced her first name.

I guess you could say that Maile has always been the "odd one out"- not because she's odd or anything, but just because out of all three of us.. she was the skinny, blonde one while me and Pumpkin were the short, thick ones. Lol. Also because of the fact that while Pumpkin and I looked like my dad, she resembled my mom the most. Friends and family members always said that Maile was the the different one- not in a bad way. But in reality, we're ALL a lot more alike than you think. While Pumpkin was the hard one, Maile was more of the "girly" one. I was kinda in the middle. She was the sister who tried to avoid conflicts at all cost while Pumpkin was the one searching for one. LOL- But we still would have a few arguments here and there. So I guess we may "appear" different, but if you were to sit in a room with us three. You'd see that our personalities just mesh (is that a word? lol).

Even though I bump heads with her the most out of her and Pumpkin, aside from all that bickering and fighting I have no reason to believe that she wouldn't be there for me not as a friend, but as a sister. Yes we fight and yes it has gotten to the point where we cut up each others clothes and her giving me a black eye! (don't ask. lol) But I like to think that thats just what siblings do... and at the end of the day, a couple of fights here and there can't even measure up to the value of sisterhood. I admit, there were plenty of times in highschool where I hated playing with her... not because I hated HER specifically, but because all I would ever hear at home was, "Why can't u play more like Maile?"- and I just couldn't take that pressure. My sister was an amazing volleyball player, and I just felt like I would never be able to be in her shoes no matter how hard I worked. But she motivated me to pull through all that stress during highschool and she taught me how to be a more aggressive player. So after she graduated, her motivation led me to try and follow in her footsteps as much as I can for the two years that I had left :)

Even though to some people (who are to remain unknown. lol) aren't proud of the things my sister has done in the past, I am extremely proud of her and how much of a wonderful woman she's grown into.

Both of my sisters have been such great role models to me and have taught me many lessons in life that help me learn to carry myself as a strong woman just like they have.

...I LOVE MY SISTERS...

..just one of those days..

So its Sunday morning and the first thing that I think about when I wake up are my two nieces back in Utah: Teleisia Nichole and Maile Makalita. Back home, I always woke up to all the crazy noises my nieces would make. Whether they were crying, laughing, whining, or in my room playing with my make-up.......... there was never a time where there was silence in our house. Lol- and now that all thats gone, the only thing I'm hearing when I wake up is my stupid annoying alarm clock! LOL-For me, as much as that bothered me when I lived back at home.. I would give ANYTHING to have it again.

It broke my heart that I wasn't there to watch Maile take her first walking steps without help and that I had to miss out on her first birthday party..... and it breaks a little bit more each time I talk to my other niece Teleisia on the phone. Just hearing my nieces voices over the phone makes me teary eyed and the minute my niece says, "I miss you aunty"- I burst out in tears :'(

I miss them SO much and it makes me so sad that I'm not going to be able to see them for thanksgiving/my birthday. Just the other day I went costume shopping with my friends and the halloween store we went to had an entire section of 'Yo Gabba! Gabba!' costumes for toddlers!- and that just brought back memories of when I would have to watch baby Sia while Pumpkin ran errands and the ONLY thing that would make her stop crying would be the 'Yo Gabba! Gabba!' tv show. This little girl was obsessed! She knew all the songs word for word and new the dance moves and she also took her stuffed 'Probe' (character from the show) with her everywhere she went. That was her favorite show :aside from Dora the Explorer of course. But seeing those costumes just reminded me of how much I miss my babygirls and even though their annoying and irritating crying made me want to punch myself in the face........ I would much rather punch myself in the face then be two states away from them. Lol. Only because I miss them THAT much :)

They could be screaming bloody murder while running around in a dirty diaper for all I care.... But just being able to be there watching them grow up is good enough for me. Plus I'm working on trying to be their favorite aunty. Lol. Wait- who am I kidding? Obviously I'm the better half on that part. LOL- joking. But anyways, you get the picture. *Funny story........... I was sitting in my dorm room bored and so I decided to check up on my little bro to see how he was doing and see if he was enjoying his freshman year of highschool. So I called his phone and a guy with a really deep voice answered:

Guy with deep voice: "Hello?"

Me: "Uhhh.. yeah is AJ there?"

Guy with deep voice: "Nikki?"

Me: *confused* "Ummm.. yeeeeah?"

Guy with deep voice: "Its me AJ stupid, what do you want?"

Hahahahaha I just busted out laughing because the last time I had talked to my little brother, he was in that stage in his teenage life where his voice squeaked- poor guy. Lol. Just the fact that I couldn't recognize his voice was shocking to me.... and made me miss my family even more :(

Random story I know, but i just wanted to throw that out there. Lol. Anywho- these are my sunday thoughts for today (:

"Up Til' Dawn"

A little over a week ago, I was asked by one of my teammates if I would like to participate in a fundraiser that her house (sorority house that is..) was holding for the St. Judes Childrens Hospital. So I said, "Hey why not?!", I mean its not like I had anything better to do for the rest of the week. Lol- Plus I thought it'd be a perfect opportunity for me to get some community service hours :) hah. This Halloween themed fundraiser occurs every year in October and has always been very successful.... So I've heard. Lol.

The theme for this years fundraiser was

-"Scare Away Cancer"-

"TEAM TIE-DYE"

In order to participate in this fundraiser, each participant had to pay a 5 dollar admission and were assigned to a team. Each person also had to bring 50 house addresses to mail the donation envelopes to. So from 8-12pm (with little breaks in between.. LOL) my team and I had sat around this table filling out donation sheets, writing addresses and licking envelopes :) Now as boring as that sounds, of course there were other activites going on that gave us time to take little breaks so it actually wasn't too bad at all :)

Aside from making donation letters, each team also had to come up with costumes for the "Best Team Costumes" Award... and our team won :) LOL- which was only because we were the only team there dressed up! Hahaha we tried to look like hippies... my costume was a last minute sorta thing that i just grabbed from my closet. Haha at least we got free bowling passes!

Ahhhh! Now these two girls are the funniest white girls you will ever meet....... that is, if you ever get the chance to meet them. LOL- on your left is my dead sexy friend Darian Lightfoot (: also known as D-Money! Now this girl will make you laugh non-stop. She has jokes for days and almost everything she says qualifies for a facebook status most definitely. LOL- I love her. On the right is her best friend and big sorority sister Katherine. She is just as funny and very smart. Her strong personality just brightens up any room and her charm makes her very easy to get along with. These two wonderful women were the highlight of my night.

There were lots of activites going on such as raffle tickets and prizes, bobbing for apples, decorating mini pumpkins for your dormrooms, pizza and unlimited fountain drinks! They also had a pretty sick haunted house downstairs that everyone got to go through free of charge :) Darian of course was way to chicken to go through so me, Katherine and KP decided to go. No lie- it was a pretty badass haunted house. Lol. I'm pretty sure I had my arms around KP's neck the entire time because I was so scared... Boy do I love Halloween :)

Overall this was an awesome night. I had a blast with the activities and felt pride in myself for helping out in supporting the fight against cancer. I know this wasn't the best blog ever but I couldn't help but rush.. Lol Sorry :/ anyways, i hope i've given you a little bit of insight of something I thought was a great thing to blog about. hah. Till' next time (:

Surprise, surprise..

So last week was our spring break for school and we had the entire week off. A whole week of NO SCHOOL, I was way too excited! I had so many things I had planned on doing over the break...... movies, sleepovers, brunch with my teammates(:, chillin with my cousins from Oakland, hanging out with Rob (my fathead boyfriend), just everything! But what did I do?? Absolutely nothing. Lol. Until a trip down south (south of Utah i mean lol) came unexpectedly.

Once Spring Break had started, we were having back to back workouts for volleyball which unfortunately left me way too tired to do anything. Even though those workouts were only an hour.. trust, it was the longest, most tiring, hardest, sweat-drippin-like-water hour of my entire life! Lol. Seriously though. I just wasn't in the mood to do anything. On top of workouts we had our regular volleyball practices on Tuesday and Thursday nights in Layton. I'm pretty sure I spent my whole spring break either in Bountiful for workout or Layton for practice.

Since I was dreading workouts and practices, I decided (in the middle of the week) that I needed a break from volleyball. Lol- So I woke up at 8 in the morning, put on my most comfortable sweat pants, met up with some close friends (who wish to remain unknown LOL) and headed out to surprise my boyfriend in Ephraim. It was thee longest two hour drive of my life.. but besides the deers, cows and stinky smell.. it was well worth it :)

The entire drive on the way down I was so paranoid that Rob had already found out I was coming, even though I had told him that I'll be in Layton for training the whole day (smart I know! LOL). But I knew I was just thinking way too much and the surprise was still in progress. So I didn't let it get to me. He kept sending me, "What are you doing?" text messages and all I sent back was, "Oh nothing, just still in Layton" LOL- and the closer we got to Ephraim the more nervous I became. I don't know why, but I was getting butterflies in my stomach! Then I realized that during the time me and Rob were dating, I had never surprised him. Not once. Some girlfriend I am right? hah. This was the perfect opportunity!

But anyways, so you would think that after not seeing your girlfriend/boyfriend for a couple days.. an unexpected visit from either would be the best to do right????- So here I am wondering how Rob was going to react to me surprising him. Is he gonna be happy to see me? Is he gonna give me a hug? and all I kept thinking was, "I can't wait to see the look on his face" Lol- So we pull up to his apartment (I made sure he was there first of course) and I watched my friends walk up quietly and knock while I stayed behind just to be the last one to walk in ;p LOL.

He opened the door and thats when I made my move and walked into the apartment where I saw him standing in the living room..

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ME: "Surprise!"

HIS REACTION: *looks around* "Ummm...." *scratches head* "Wowuhhh..?" *stares at me with a blank look on his face* "But I have class??"

ME: "Gee thanks, it's nice to see you too!"

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So as you can tell.. this wasn't exactly the reaction I was lookin for. Lol- but he told me afterwards he was just in shock mode (nice cover up rob ;p haha just kidding). But being there was the important thing and we ended up setting that aside and going out for lunch. The whole time we were there all he kept saying to me was, "I hate you. I can't believe you're really here. You really got me babe" Lol. I felt special because I was actually able to pull it off instead of giving in and telling him that I was on my way to Snow even though it was killing me inside that I had to keep lying to him.

After lunch, we thought it would be a good idea to head to the Manti Temple and take some pictures to remember our little trip.

After taking a million pictures (I only put up three out of the twenty that we took LOL), time was running short and so my friends and I had to get ready to head back to Salt Lake. Since Rob had his practice and I still had my volleyball to attend, we had only got to be with other for a short amount of time.


The surprise visit: fun.

Saying "good-bye": not so fun.


I don't get to see Rob as much as I want to so the trip had gone much better then what I had planned. Since I only see him on weekends, being able to see in the middle of the week made the rest of my week that much better :)