stressed.

I'm pretty sure last week was one of thee most stressful weeks of my life. We had finally gotten a new coach for volleyball, and let's just say I think she's related to Hitler. Lol- no really though. Our practices have been nothing but non-stop running and jumping leaving me way too exhausted and tired to do anything, therefore, I started falling behind on my classes. Then of course I tried making an effort to do my work which took me HOURS! Literally. Sometimes I had to pull all-nighters which put my body and mind in terrible condition. It was just hell week for sure. I wasn't eating much because I tried to sleep every free-time I had because I was so tired, I couldn't concentrate in my classes because I was so worn out, and I didn't even talk to Robert that much because I was so busy :( But on top of everything..... all I could think about was going home.

It's FINALLY April, and the closer it gets to me going home the more homesick I get. I miss my stubborn father, my annoying mother, my rude little brothers, my loud and stinky nieces, and my sisters(as weird as that sounds. lol). To be honest the thought of being homesick had NEVER crossed my mind when deciding to attend school here in Missouri and I never thought I would fall under this category seeing as how excited I was to just "get out"- you know? But trust me, it's so tough out here without having my family near me.

*sigh* I'm happy its getting closer though. Because I absolutely cannot wait to be back in the city with my loved ones! ;) ..In the mean time I'm hoping my stress level will lower. Lol. Hopefully.

That is all.. not much I know. But it was just some things that were on my mind ;)

.xOxO.

there's no place like home.

This week is my spring break for my school and while everyone, or i'd say... about 90% of the campus is out having a blast in Panamal Beach City, Florida. And while they're out there relaxing on the beach, with their toes curled in the warm sand, sippin' on a margarita while getting a tan in the marvelous weather................... I'm here. In the small town of Fulton, Missouri. By myself. In this room the size of a jail cell. But am I complaining? (I don't know, am I? lol) A little bit, yeah. Lol.

I guess I shouldn't complain too much since I'm not entirely here by myself... right? Kitty is here with me, but she's in a sorority and her sorority house is across campus. We tried to make the best out of our break but doing little things. We had a movie night last nite with our good friend Morgan (lol) and baked choco-chip cookies with pizza :) So I guess you could say its not all that entirely bad. At least I get the lounge to myself, right? Lol.

But tonight? Tonight's just a different story. Everything just had to sink in as I was laying in my bed, staring at the ceiling, wondering what the hell to do. I starting thinking about how I was never bored like this at home because Pumpkin was always home with the babies and so I always had someone to play with. Then it hit me, and good ol' cry baby crystal took over me. I really miss home :(

Last semester, I was hit by the homesick truck almost every single night. It was horrible. I found myself almost crying randomly all the time but I just missed my family so much. Especially my daddy. This semester has been a lot better for me though, but better doesn't mean its entirely gone. I've learned to deal with the fact that I'm away, but nights like these is when you just have to let it out sometimes ya know? I know I did.

..So i'll just be here, wishing that the next month and a half will go by quick-

love you all & goodnight,

.xOxO.

So....

...robb couldn't make the flights to come out this weekend :( It was really the only thing I was looking forward to for the weekend.

Was I sad? Very.

Did I cry? A little bit.

But I'm not one to be pessimistic. So I told him it was fine and that we should just look forward to spending the entire summer together :) ..of course I gotta find a summer job first. lol- but as much as I was super bummed I couldn't get to see Robb this weekend, the next month and a half is going to go by super fast and it was just a matter of time before I'll be home again :)

So everythings good now! lol.

..you guys love us :)

Asta la'bye bye

.xOxO.

short but sweet.

So I sat in stake conference today, (Yes, I go to church here in Missouri.... Sometimes. lol- at least I go right?) and I decided to make a blogging goal. Every sunday I'll post a blog with a quick update on whats to come for the week ahead. Just so it could help me get used to blogging every week... even though I think I've been doing pretty good lately. You think? :) Lol.

Anyway... I am STOKED for this week!!!!!!!!!!!!
(as shown by the amount of exclamation points. lol)

Wanna know why?

1. No classes Tuesday & Wednesday due to Assessment Day :)

[So guess who's sleeping in??? I AM!]

2. Thursday is College Night at Tifs :)

[that calls for a G.N.O!.. woot! woot!]

3. Friday begins our spring break and Kitty (my friend Cat) and I are goin to St. Louis :)

[sight-seeing & shopping.. my top two fave things to do, besides eating]

4. and last but not least.......... boyfriend will be in town from Thursday to Sunday :)

[thanku delta airlines for flying boyfriend down to see me this week, ur the best airlines ever!]

..I'd say this qualifies for one of the best weeks ever [B.W.E], even though it hasn't technically happened yet. lol- but life's what we make it :)

Hope ya'll have a fantabulous week!

.xOxO.

boyfriend.

This is my boyfriend. :)

Isn't he handsome?? :)

Now tell me what kinda girl wouldn't love a face like that? Lol.

..and he flew 5 hours, just to visit me for the weekend.

Man, do I love him.

P.S

Robert HATES taking pictures. So this was a real treat for me ;)

Thank goodness for Oovoo!

...I loooove his smile :)

..his kisses are STILL the best :)

..and I love him :)

distance definitely can't compete with love :)

Boredom

*sigh*

Times like this is when I wish I had some red shoes that I could just click together and say "There's no place like home" over and over again until I actually end up at home. It wouldn't hurt to be in my own room again.. it's not that I hate having a roommate, but I loooooved having a room to myself cause I was able to just do my own thing. I could play my music as loud as I want without worrying about it disturbing anyone, I could get dressed without going in the bathroom or in my closet (lol.. is that weird that I'm body shy to get dressed around other girls? I can't even dress in front of my sisters let alone in front of strangers. Lol), I wouldn't have to share one bathroom between three other girls, I wouldn't have to go outside to talk on the phone, and well, no offense to my roommate, but I always feel like I have to start up a conversation with her during awkward silence. Even when I don't really want to. Lol. Sometimes I just feel like I'm forcing myself to be comfortable in my own dorm.. get it?

But at home.... I could do ALL those things. I could've even LIVED in my room if I wanted to. Lol. Really though, since my room was right next to the bathroom and kitchen, I was pretty much set. I think the entire winter break I was hooked on my tv cuz over here we don't have a tv in our room. I could tell you right now, without a tv in your dorm its soooooooooo BORING!- why do you think i've actually accomplished posting two blogs these passed two weeks? Or why I'm on facebook 25/8? (Does that make me facebook loser? Lol)

There is a TV in this dorm hall but you would have to go down to the lounge to watch it and its almost always occupied by other people... so annoying. I HATE missing out on tv shows :/ Sometimes.............. I don't even know what to do with myself? I had a box of wheat thins I just bought from walmart like yesterday and today? Woke up. Ate the entire box. Lol. Only cause I had nothing to do!! *sigh* I need to find a new thing to do. You think?